Home Sweet Home

Here I am at home. Somehow we made it home in 6 1/2 hours instead of the usual 7 1/2-8. So that was really nice, plus I got out of class early on Tuesday. That night I just stayed in and talked to my parents for a little while then went to bed around 2.

Wednesday I just layed around and watched tv and played with one of my nephews. But Wed. nite ( the biggest party nite of the year, or so they say ) I went to the tavern and ate dinner with some friends I hadnt seen in a long time and then went out in Corry to watch Face Down in High Water play. The night would have ended there with us having a blast, but it didnt. That place was so damn smokey, everyones eyes burned and so we headed back to New York, where smoking is prohibited in bars. And that was fun too. Saw some more people I hadnt seen in a while. And then all my other friends came back from Corry, so all in all a favorable night.

Yesterday was Thanksgiving, that was fun, mostly. Eric and I got up and headed to his house ( with Jagger ) so he could get ready then we headed out to his aunt and uncles for "dinner" at one. So we ate there and watched some football. And I tried taking some pictures of his little cousins...we'll see how that turned out tomorrow, I think. After that we headed to my parents house for turkey dinner with my fam. That was really nice. And then we ended up going back to Erics house late at night because I didn't want Jagger to sleep all alone in the new place. I didn't want to get rid of him, and now Libby is missing him. Its really sad, its like gettin rid of my kid for the weekend or something

So that leaves today. Well, I was supposed to get home early so I could get a lot of crap done, which of course didnt happen. So mom and I got our start sometime after 12. I went and shot an assignment roll of my cousin, then headed into J-town for some new tires for the durango. Used one of my coupon thingers and did a lil shopping at Gadzooks. But Amy and Dustin came with us there so that was nice Then when I got home I headed right over to my aunt and uncles to take some family shots, hopefully some of them came out. I'm lacking in the confidence department, but there is evidence to back up my thinking, I think.

So I was supposed to go see Tara tonight, and I was gonna but I ended up being at my uncle's later than expected and now she isn't answering her phone. Ahh well it got super snowy here tonite anyway so staying in is probably a good idea. I'm just missing out on the fun that everyone is having tonite where the band is playing. Wow, Eric just called me and he's even doin somethin fun, everyone is. I'm such a loser...but at least I'll be a well-rested loser and a loser not driving in this shitty weather! So I guess I"m hittin the hay nice and early this evening. Right after I push the publish post button... G'nite to anyone who actually read down this far, or those that cheated and just skimmed to the bottom

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YAY I'm goin home in a couple days!! I'm so excited now that I have plans made. Its gonna be crazy and I don't know how I'm going to get my assignments done. Five days just isnt long enough to see all the people we haven't seen in a long time and have time to hang out with the family. At least Christmas break is 2 weeks off.

I'm feelin a little tired, but seeing how I havent been able to sleep very well lately, I"m kind of afraid to lay down. I hate just laying there, doing nothing. It feels like the biggest waste of time.

Yesterday Eric and I went to Connecticut for the day to visit some of his friends and his brother. That was pretty fun, hearing all the crazy stuff Eric used to do  Its weird, its like it opened up a whole new portion of him to me that I never knew existed. I think differently of him, in a good way though.

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Mumblings...

So its been a couple blogless days. Time is just flying and things were kind of hectic, trying to get those 3 assignments done for yesterday. Now I only have one thing left to hand in before going home for turkey break, and thats already done. So now I just have 1 day of class left, 1 day with a guest speaker, and 1 day shooting left. So it  should be fun and mostly quick.

It sucks, I thought I was gonna get home Tuesday night at like 10 or something, now its looking more like midnite to one. So I'm disappointed. Ah well, as long as Eric and I don't argue on the trip home. That seems like the only time we ever fight. Well I guess sometimes when we talk about him not having a job we argue a little bit. I would like to think that if I was in his position, I would take almost any job that I could possibly find. He, on the other hand, is a little bit picky ( I think ) about it. I mean, I probably wouldnt sink to McDonalds level, so I support him there, but there are other possibilities he could accept. I heard that the word "McJob" was put into the dictionary and that McDonalds is all upset. Is that true?

Then I worry about him getting a job when I'm done at Hallmark. Who knows exactly where we'll end up? I mean, its definitely an option to move back towards home, but what if I get into some travel photography? Leave him at home, or make him my assistant ? I'd opt to bring him along, but I'm sure that it just cant work like that. Maybe I'll never do travel photo who knows. I guess we'll hafta sort things out when the time comes, if it does.

I haven't been able to sleep lately, but since Eric just made dinner, I have to go eat. Maybe I'll get into that later.

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NEeD'n SLeeP

Just doin some quick bloggin before I head to bed. It was a somewhat successful day, but it started out a little stressful. I got up early and headed into film lab to develop a roll of film that is due Wednesday and I couldn't find my film anywhere. I was freakin out a little bit and thought maybe I put it in one of the two kids I was shooting with's bag on accident, so I drove home to go back to bed. Well when I got home, I found it in my school bag instead of my camera bag, so I had it, hallelujah!

I did go back to sleep anyway cuz it was so warm and inviting with Eric and Jagger laying there. I just barely got it developed in time for print lab but I did. And two of my three assignments that are due Wed. are completed. The last one I'll have to get up early and work on it during my open time in the morning. I also got a perfect score on my first portrait assignment, so that rawks.

The only thing that sucked a little was that I had to go back into the studio tonight to shoot a roll that I didn't have time to finish last week during class. But it wasn't so bad, it just wasted my night and made it seem to go really quick, which I need this week, so its all good. I'm a little pissed, I won another book on ebay, bought it for a buck and the guy is telling me shipping is $12.30 thats insane. I'm not happy bout that, but whatever.

Luckily I have open all morning tomorrow cuz I think I'm going to be sleeping in. I feel a lil bad because I told Sarah I'd meet her around 8 to work on our one assignment. I guess we'll see though. But I better go to sleep now so I can get up at least a little early tomorrow--

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My blog is 34% evil and 66% good...

at least thats what the little test I took said. Well it was a good but boring day. I won a film back on ebay, so I'm super happy Other than that I just sat around the apartment most of the day. I watched the race and some football games and thats about it. I probably should have gone up to school to get some work done, but I'm dumb and I didn't. So I will be putting in a lot of hours this week since I have 4 assignments due.

Only 9 days til I get to go home, so that's cool. I'm really excited about doing some portfolio work while I'm there. I also have to pick up some stuff for my speech. And it'll be the first time drinking at the tavern with Stacey being legal, so that'll be cool. This week will probably go so slow even though the rest have blown by. Anticipation always slows things down. But keeping busy tends to speed them up. So I guess maybe it won't seem any different. I dunno, but I'm gettin a lil tired so I'm off to tend to Eric and fall asleep to some NickAtNite.

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I get pink when I turn out the lights...I love Aerosmith.

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A rather uneventful day

Yeah so I didnt do a whole lot today. Slept til sometime after noon. Watched a movie. Returned the movies. Went grocery shopping. Came home and ebay'ed. My mom called and we talked for an hour or so. Watched some SNL and now here I am.  Seems kinda sad, but it wasn't so bad at all.

I won a book on ebay and I'm working on a film back for my Mamiya and also a dvd set for my brother for Christmas.

 

Is it wrong to hope for someone to get a divorce? My mom told me that my oldest brother and his wife are talking about getting a divorce. I think this is the best thing in the world for him. She's so nasty and she made him nasty and that makes me so sad.

They have 3 kids together and she's never been a good mom so I guess I'm glad she said she doesn't want the kids. It would be awful to see them go with her. I feel so bad for my nephews, they are going to be the kids at school that everybody thinks are the "gross kids" or bad or something negative. And they are not bad kids at all. The bad thing is that a 15 year old would make a better parent than either my brother or his wife do. Their family is the exact opposite of my other brothers family. So that doesnt help things out for my oldest brother because his fam gets compared to my other brothers, and he doesn't fare too well going up against that.

I also started a picture blog today. But I'm having a hell of a time getting everything to work out. That should be figured out soon.  Well thats all I've got for right now. I've got some stuff to do. Nitey-nite

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Another terribly exciting post

Why is it that the older you get the more expensive the things you want for Christmas are? My moms like "make a list" and I'm like "with the stuff I want I'm only going to get one thing." It's just not like the old days "Mommy buy me some cheap plastic things and a Barbie." I feel bad asking for stuff that costs so much, but there really isn't much else I want right now.

I'm so happy, Eric plasticked....{ obviously that isn't a word but I'm definitely gonna use it anyway } the windows of the apartment and even the door in the bedroom. Its much warmer already and I'm sure it'll cut down the heating bill. I think its wrong for landlords to rent out places where there are gaps in the door and the doorframe on the outside doors. Eric had to cut up a pair of shorts to stuff the gaps for the door in the bedroom. And the door to the hallway has a gap of an inch on the bottom of it, which sucks because all the cold air from the hall seeps into the living room/kitchen. Not good, so we have to stuff towels along the bottom of that door, which is annoying because then we have to kick it outta the way to get out. It also sucks to have the gap there because the cats push their toys underneath it and then lay there with their arms reaching underneath the door to get it. It is funny to watch but its annoying if you arent paying attention and they start scratching at the door. I really dont like wintertime. I need to move south but not too far south or then I'd just bitch all summer about the heat Well if I lived in Hawaii I guess that wouldn't be a problem. No reason to complain there!!

Well I guess I better go watch the other movie I rented for tonight. The first one was daddy day care, that was a pretty cute movie. Now its time for boat trip. Later y'all

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Ah Ha!!!

I just read on a website that my mild depression/weirdness may be caused by birth control! It's so nice to have something to blame....

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Mmmmmmmm I think I'm gonna make brownies

Since I have a chance to write in this thing, I guess I will :)  I barely have the energy to sit here and type. I'm so tired, thank god I only have one more day to stay awake through before the weekend. I was stupid last night. I went to bed around 8 ( good idea ) but got back up to play xbox with Eric because I don't ever get to spend much time with him ( bad idea ). Then I couldn't get to sleep until after one or something this morning. So I am stupidly tired today.  And I'll probably end up not getting much sleep again tonight. It just always seems to work out that way. 

I only have 2 classes tomorrow and luckily portrait studio is one of them. I really like that, which is good since I want to open my own portrait studio. I just hope I'm with good people, because I'd hate to get in a bad mood so early in the morning. I've really gotta come up with a good name for my business. I can't use my name, thats so boring, plus I'm pretty sure my names gonna change within the next five years. Maybe thats just wishful thinking, but I'm pretty sure its not. I just want something pretty or cool sounding, but I haven't been able to think of anything yet, but I have to soon.

So I got back all my work from the first phase, and I did pretty damn good. Got almost all of the credit I could possibly get. We are already pretty full steam into phase two. I can't believe November is already HALF OVER!!! This is nuts, time is going super fast. We've started our oral presentations  I really don't want to do another one. Its about hobbies, and I don't think I really have any. I'll probably do it on either paintball or travel. Whoo whoo, right? I wish we had to talk about something besides being related to ourselves, I might do better that way. But thats the third O.P. This time around its only 10 minutes but next time its either 30 or 45, not sure. But its a group one so it shouldn't be too awful.  

Ugh, I'm running out of clothes to wear. Seriously, I have nothing good to wear. We really need to go to the laundromat. I just don't like going there at all, its expensive and dirty, yuck. But I know I can't make it til turkey break so I could take my clothes home and do them. Oh I know my mom misses doin my laundry  

Now that I'm feeling better, my "kids" aren't. Libby has it coming out one end and Jagger has it out the other--its so disgusting. I can't believe how much they are both growing. Jagger is getting so big in a healthy way, and Libby, she's growing...rounder. She's one fat kitty! I feel bad for her, I think its because of having her spayed over the summer, because she's still really active and I don't think I feed her too much, but maybe I do. I dunno.

Well I have to go do some things, and if anyone has read this thing this far down, why don't you leave me a comment or something? I so rarely get those...I suck.

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Okay that wasn't so hard. But I would like mine to be all cool like some other people's. Maybe someday I'll be all smart like them

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Oh shit. What'd I do?? Anyone wanna help me? Please?

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Somebody shoot me

Ahhhh a day of bad moods. The credit all goes to me. I just feel like a lousy shitbag sometimes. Today is one of those days indeed. I feel so bad for Eric, he has to put up with me all the time. He's so good to me and I am so thankful he moved out here with me. I also feel bad for him because I'm the only person he ever sees just about. He still hasn't found a job  

I feel like there is no reason for me to be alive. All I ever do is a whole lot of nothing. I'd like to change that and yet at the same time I'm satisified with my boring as hell life. It's not always bad, just certain days I feel like this. Like today, I accomplished nothing. When I got home from school I plopped my ass on the couch and watched tv, took a nap, woke up, watched more tv and now at midnite, I'm on this thing. THAT WAS MY DAY. How awful is that??? I guess I also ate periodically through out the night out of boredom, not hunger. God I'm so pathetic. I just don't know what I can do to make myself feel better. I dont know if there is anything. Theres gotta be, but it probably costs money and I don't have any. I can't wait to go home and get recharged, money-wise, friend-wise, family-wise. I'm not homesick or anything, I just don't feel like I have made any real good connections out here. I mean, there are people here, and I like them, I just don't see them outside of classes. I want to, I just don't. So that makes me think I'm a loser even more.

Today we had to work in groups. Lets just say I'm not too impressed with my new section. Not a big fan of the people I had to work with. Maybe it's because I'm such a loser today but maybe because they really are what I thought they seemed to be. I'm not tired and I still have so much to say, but I think I need to DO something before I go to bed. I don't know what but I have to. Hopefully I wake up in a much better mood tomorrow  G*nite

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Blah blah blah blah blah BLAH!

Damn its been awhile. It was a somewhat crazy week. Phase one is now over and I'm not going crazy anymore. It's wonderful. The sad thing was that we had to trade sections at school. It's not all bad I guess, and Sarah is still in my group so thats cool.

For some reason I'm still sick. It's incredibly annoying. I think I must have lost weight, my jeans were fallin off my hips and all I've really eaten this week was jello. My gut shrunk! Oh my goodness  Too bad it won't stay that way. Luckily I had an appetite today so I'm eating a little bit today.

Speaking of food, have you ever gone grocery shopping, spent a lot of money, and then had nothing to eat when you got home??? It almost always seems that way here, what am I doin wrong? Is it really possible to be a bad grocery shopper? must be.

I guess I'm keepin it pretty short today. Things to do...later y'all

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Yesterday was Halloween

Wow, I've missed a whole week. It's been pretty hectic plus I've been sick  Monday was pretty good, accomplished a whole lot of nothing, played some beer pong and got Eric totally SMASHED! ahhh hehehe that was a pretty funny night. Tuesday I started to get sick, which wasn't good because it was while I was in the darkroom. I didn't stay the whole time but I got 6 out of 10 of my assignments done. Due to some difficulties in many different areas, 10 has become 9. So I've done a lot of shooting and developing of negs this past week and I'm pretty much ready to hand everything in. I'm not proud of any of it, but at least I have something to hand in. Yesterday was Halloween, hope everyone had a good one. I had a decent one. The class went down to New York City for the day to the photoexpo plus thing. I hung out with Sarah, Shennah and Amy and we just walked around Times Square pretty much. It was really fun and I can't wait to go back. We got our picture taken with the "naked cowboy" who I guess is "famous" or something but I didn't know that. So that was interesting. Yesterday was so WARM it was great. Then we went to a presentation by Norman Jean ( I think thats his name ) Anyway that was amazing. I want to have his life! Basically all he shoots is celebrities and he gets to travel all over the world all the time. Crazy. Well I'm wrappin this thing up, so I can go eat and take some drugs, my throat is still killing me    Later -----

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