I've got a bad headache so this is gonna be short. Plus I still have some packing to do so I can leave right after I get out of school tomorrow. Set up my first assisting assignment. I'll be shadowing a photographer from the local paper for a few hours sometime next week. Damn I'm uninteresting, I will stop taking up your time now.

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Things are falling into place! I got 2 responses for my assisting assignments! Met some lady with a 3 year old boy to come pose for me. Found someone back home to pose for one of my assignments. Speaking of back home, thats where I'm headed for the weekend. I have to go get lenses for my new camera and shoot some assignments. Hopefully that whole thing goes well. My best friend is going to be back in town this weekend, too so I'm excited about that. Haven't seen her in a couple months. I'm going to end with some updates.

Update on the sleep issue: I laid down by 11 or so and fell asleep around......one-thirty. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! I'm gonna have to resort to drugs or something.

Update on the stomach issue: better but not completely.

Update on Life: still lovin' it.

Until later, beautiful people

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Here it is, my lovely new camera!! I'm so freakin excited

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Ok so my new goal is to try to maintain some health. Starting with "curing" my sleeping problem. Lately I just havent slept well at all. Well the sleeping part isnt so bad, its the getting there thats giving me problems. I lay down and it takes 2 hours to fall asleep, therefore laying down at midnite is not a good idea. And thats why as soon as I'm done with this I'm going to go lay down so I can be asleep by 1230 or something I hope.

And then lately my stomach has been acting insanely pissed of at me. Its been all crampy and not impressed with the food I've been feeding it. And its nothing terrible, mostly normal things. I'm not a big junk food person or anything but something is bothering it and its not getting full either. I'm used to being almost always  hungry but the past few days I can't quench my hunger [ does hunger get "quenched" or is it just thirst?? maybe I should use a different word? ] Constantly starving isn't any fun. Its incredibly annoying and then when I eat my stomach hurts. Ahhh so annoying. So hopefully this irritating little cycle ends shortly. Anyone know any irritated-stomach friendly foods? I'd appreciate some thoughts on that. Okay I'm off to attempt some sleep.

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Sometimes I think my road has been too easy. Smooth, fast paced and fun. Not any big curves or steep hills or drop offs. Minimal traffic jams. And I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I'm thinking its probably a little bit of both. Its good because I'm not emotionally messed up. I'm a pretty normal person and I think thats a good way to start out life. But its bad because at some point things are going to change. I'll come upon a big bend and I'll probably wreck. I'm not prepared to handle anything big.

I don't think its fair that my life has been this easy. Not when comparing it to others who are less fortunate. But there isn't anything I could have done to change that, except maybe to run away, but why on earth would I do that? I think that its all going to come crashing down at once. Like taking a big curve way too fast and finding out too late that the road is puddled from the rain. *CRASH* 

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Oooh I just found out I'm going to be an aunt again!! I'm so excited   I've already got 4 nephews, lets hope this ones a girl!

 

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To be honest, theres really no special reason I wrote that. No particular events sparked it or anything. Just right now I am completely happy. I don't really know why exactly, I just am. I don't know how long it will last but I'm enjoying it while its here.

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I love life.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

just wanted to say that

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...WARNING: this entry may suck...

Yeah so I'm kind of forcing myself to write something since its been a while. I pretty much feel like I have nothing to say but maybe once I get going it might all work out or something

So what have you been up to this week, you ask? To be totally honest, it doesnt seem like a whole heck of a lot. The days flew by with mostly a lot of class time and planning for my assignments. I've shot 4 already in the past 2 days! Go me  

I've also come to realize that I need some practice in the studio/working with people I don't know/etc...A LOT. I need to get comfortable in there and just do my thing. I need to put in terms that a fellow photographer told me, its only a half hour, I'm not really wasting any of there time. Because thats one of my big things. I always feel like I should take like 2 seconds to compose a shot and set up all the lights just right and all of that. I do a pretty good job when I'm working with people I know, so I just gotta start acting like I know everyone or something.

I've also spent a lot of this week not sleeping. I've been having the worst week of sleep in a long time. Tonight I am definitely taking something to help me out. The worst part was probably on Monday night when I finally fell asleep around 1 and someone CALLED MY HOUSE at 2. Grrrr. Woke me up and took me a little while to fall back to sleep. It almost always freaks me out when I hear my phone ring, the internet is on all day so it doesnt ever ring pretty much. I like it that way

As I was driving home from school today I realized that I saw a house that had a  big Grinch outside. Take it down!!! Its almost March, I thought. And then I saw a Halloween decoration on someones door...now thats just pathetic. Lets see, we won't count October since Halloween is at the end but, November, December, January, February...Its almost turned into a half a year display. Maybe it already is because they decorated early?? Who knows. People are lazy. See, I'm lazy, but at least I wont put something out there for me to leave for a year.

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Wow, I heard some shitty news today. My friend's old girlfriend died in a car accident today. This poor guy has lost so many people in the last year, this makes five. I just hope he stays sane, he's prone to depression pretty easily. I need to get that off my mind or I wont be able to sleep, I think of the worst things, which I wont go into-it wouldnt be nice.

On a decent note, we had a guest speaker today, photographer Joyce Tenneson. It was very inspiring.

Thats all I'm putting down tonight...blog atcha later

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I can't even get a break on my birthday...I went outside for a few short moments to get my camera out of my boys car...and I SLIPPED down the icy ass driveway. I was on the phone with my mom and she got a nice earful of '' aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh." I wonder what its like being on that end of the action. I didnt think it was too bad at first but damn is my body aching! 

Other than that, its been a pretty chill day. I got my birthday wish, Dale Jr. won the Daytona 500 so thats awesome. [ Yes I am a hick, and watch Nascar  ] I think this is my first year without a birthday cake so thats kind of sad. But it really isnt a big deal I suppose, just something I've been conditioned to think I need, like the whole Pavlov's dogs trick.

I ordered a pizza today and I still cant believe I paid 11 bucks on a small pizza. This New England living is gonna leave me broke! Well I'm off for now, perhaps I'll be back to blog more later. Never can tell with the exciting life I live...shyeah right

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Or maybe I'm not.... I found this fun lil thing on someones blog and decided to post it up.

22 down 28 to go. I really need to go west....I don't know if California counts since it was a layover wait, I guess it probably doesnt.

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Ahh, I'm feelin so much better!! It just took some aleve and sleeping. Man I hate the thought of such a wasted day though. My boy went to the post office to pick up my presents that my mom shipped me and made me open them up....at like 10. I couldnt even remember what I looked at nor could I read the card my vision was still messed up. So pathetic. As for romance on this commercial love day, there wasn't much, except for my boy writing the things I need to hear from him in his valentine card to me. As far as dinner goes, I turned to a fancy ol' meal in a box solution. It wasn't too bad, really.

And hey, its past midnite. You know what that means....its my bday! Woo hoo   Birthdays are so much fun, a nice confidence booster, even. Everybody likes to talk to you whether to find out how old you are or just being nice because its "your day." Its a very nice feeling. And you just feel good because its your own special holiday.

 All I have to say is my mom is too good to me! She got me some really cool gifts for both my day and vday. And she even sent me flowers. Gotta love it. Some guy in a suit came up to my door with a rose for me -- how nice. Only I wasn't in any mood to appreciate that as I lay in bed reeking of alcohol with stomach cramps. Wonderful. Heheh but I'm over it, cuz I feel sooooooooooooooooo much better. But therein lies the problem. I feel good, I could easily forget how awful I felt and do it all over again, repeatedly. But I'm not going to let that happen. I'm gonna pay attention and know my limit from here on out, well for most of the time.

It was funny, all the things that would make me nauseous were exactly what was advertised on the television ALL DAY! Food, alcohol, and spinning/active commercials. Then slowly the food ads started to make me hungry rather than sick and I knew I was golden.

Oh yeah, good news. My friend is getting married and asked me to be her maid of honor. So I'm excited about that. Hopefully I will be a good one  I'm the only one in it, one person for the bride and one for the groom, so I get to pick out my own dress, which is great. I'm so happy for her, as long as her mans heart is where it should be...definitely have to talk about that later as it will turn into a long post most likely and this is pretty long already.

Oooooh I just remembered what I asked for my birthday from my boy! He's gonna cook somethin yummy for me-as long as he remembers! I shoud have gotten groceries to help facilitate the process but oh well maybe he'll make a trip to the store. Alright well I ought to get going, I will try to post tomorrow, sometime after the Daytona 500....man I wish I was gonna be there for my birthday. But I'm still bustin my ass at school. I have, get this, PERFECT ATTENDANCE. Now for those of you who really know me, like from high school, are probably dying about that. I lived less than a mile from school and yet somehow I found a way to be late every single day. Here at Hallmark if you are 2 seconds late you are locked out of class and have to miss it. They are very strict about that stuff. I think its helping me out a hell of a lot. Okay okay I'm really done now...

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Oh my body hates me. Its retaliating for the abuse I gave it last night. I always tell myself on the day after that "I'm never going to get that drunk again, blah blah blah." If only I would just listen to myself. I'm hoping that this is the last time for a while that I do that again. I've been in the bathroom since I got up this morning. Its a little hard to enjoy V-day like this. 

My boy made me a nice card, I love homemade so much more than storebought cards. What do they know about my relationship, really? Oh I wish I could keep writing but I think I feel another puke coming on  gotta jet!

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Ohmygod I'm trashed and in a bad mood. I'm doing my best to look over spelling/etc. problems. I had a great party, except for the 2 guys that wanted to fight and my boyfriend being mad that I wanted to "be there for my friends." It was a tough night, in which I both won and loss in beer pong, I'm tired and confused and I jus tneed to go to bed and figure things out in the morning. NHopefully things look better in the morning [or early afternooon] light. ugh if I type anymjore it'll beannoying. Blog atcha later  I'm D*e*A*D

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Oooh my turn to celebrate the quadruple digits! Thanks everybody

more to come later, I hope.

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Fourteen. Thats the number of assignments for segment 2.  Some of which I can't wait to shoot. The others however, I just don't know what to do. I hate that. Feeling uncreative is one of the crappiest things when thats basically your job. I mean, I'm not freakin about it yet because I just got the stuff today so I have almost a month and a half this time around. So it'll come along. Hopefully better than my food shot this last time...oh that was an embarassment.

Today as I was driving back from town I saw a quote on a garage's sign. "If you ever feel like you are getting to the end of your rope, quickly tie a knot and hang on." I thought that was kinda cute. Might need to refer back to that sometime around March 20th.

Feeling a little sad, it seems as if everyone is going home for Valentines day this weekend so they won't be here for my birthday party. Even people who don't have someone to go home to...how odd is that? But I guess if only five people show up...sometime around midnite or so it just might look like ten. I haven't partied hard in a little while, so I'm definitely letting myself go on Friday.

Ooooh the weather is starting to break a bit. It was 45 degrees today!! I didnt even wear my jacket to this afternoons lecture, of course it was like 35 when I got out and I looked nuts but, hey, I was enjoying my brief encounter with "warmth." Its funny, oftentimes in August I start to long for jeans and cozy sweaters, and then by January I'm begging to be able to wear itty bitty clothes and sandals. I miss the warmth of the sun on my body, maybe I'll get a little heat in New Orleans. I definitely hope so!

I guess thats all for now, as I drift off into a summer daze...

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I survived Segment 1 portfolio review!! At least, the nongraded verbal part...Now I have to wait a few weeks to get the grade and written responses. I'm so excited though! Got some good comments during it. I wasn't even paying attention to whose work was going up and Kristie said to me, "Isnt that your stuff?" Figures I'd be in the first group of three! I was so nervous!

Tomorrow starts Segment 2. This time six weeks of grueling, intense work   It is kind of tough but I can't wait to see what I have to do for the portfolio! I added UseFilm.com and my portfolio over in the links section. I just found it the other day and started posting. Can only do one picture a day so there are only two right now, but check it out from time to time to see whats been added...if you are bored and have the time, that is.

Have any of you seen someone fill the back of their pickup truck with water and make a make-shift "pool"? I hadn't ever seen that til today. Now I want a pickup truck even more! Heheh. How cool, a pool on wheels!  Speaking of new vehicles, I have to figure out what I'm gonna do when I get out of here. I think I have to give the Durango back and get my beat up car back. Then from there I can do whatever or something?? I dunno my dads always changing his mind.

I need to get off this thing--Have a good night

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Another positive day. Amy came over and we got a lot done for the speech. That was about all that I really accomplished however. The rest of the day I chilled out, read some magazines, watched some of the Grammys, and played around a little on the internet. Basically, I took a me day and it worked out nicely.

Put the finishing touches on the portfolio. I'm a little nervous about tomorrow. I dont know the format of how we have to show our work. If its one by one or if we put up one assignment as a group like we did back in November.

In Psychology Today I read an article about happiness, I think I'm going to have to get the book Authentic Happiness. Some of the surveys on the site authentichappiness.org are informative and it helps science to do them, so why  not?? I used to want to be a psychologist, I've always been interested in people. The classes I took were great but I don't think I could ever make it in that field. Wow its getting late, I better get to bed so I wont be tired and overly emotional for the portfolio review  Man I'd hate to cry there...Sorry if this was a scatterbrained entry, I didn't reread it at all. G'nite ev'ryone

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Feelin pretty good. I accomplished everything I set out to do for the day. That doesnt seem to happen very often. And I got all "done up" for the day. You know how if you put some effort into how you look you really do feel better. I got dressed sorta cute, put on some make up and even played with my hair a teeny tiny bit. Its hard to do anything with it at this length. And in the shower I used this b&b works body scrub that I got last weekend. It is sooooooooooo incredibly great feeling. My skin hasnt felt this good in so long! So that helped the good mood and whatnot of the day. I don't remember the last time I felt this good about myself. Well I'm off to watch the Bud Shoot-Out...

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I'm all done with my segment one portfolio!! It actually happened yesterday, but it was a stress-filled day with many emotions and so I didn't have time to post. The only problem is that for some reason one of my chromes didn't come back. Therefore I am screwed for a small part of my portfolio grade. I actually thought it was going to be a good image, too. Guess I'll never know. Eric cleaned up most of the apartment by the time I got home from school yesterday and had dinner going. Man was I happy!  

I definitely need to get my ass in the shower, to the grocery store...Unfortunately, I have no desire to actually do anything. I've just been so busy that I want to take advantage of it being the weekend and just chill out, read, and play around on the computer.

Today would be the day to chill because tomorrow Amy's coming over so we can work on our significant photographer speech. Its about time we start doing something, presentations begin Feb 27. Yikes! And I thought I wanted to go on the first day, now I dont think we'll be ready in time. I have looked him up a little bit and I ordered one of his books last night, hopefully it'll be here soon. The shipping said 4-14 days, thats quite a generic estimate. Its coming from NYC so I would think it wouldn't take too awful long.

Alright, I think its time to force myself into the shower so I can accomplish some things and maybe even take some pictures, seems like its been a while since I've gotten  to do any personal work. Although the stuff I've been doing for school recently, I have actually liked [ some of ] the results. About damn time, I say.

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How much do I love arguing with the boyfriend? NOT AT ALL. Its just I've been so damn busy at school that I don't have time to do anything around the house and I asked him to please help out a bit, and he didn't. So when I come home and see the dirty dishes or dirty litterbox it just adds to my stress level  I don't want to deal with home crap too, ya know? I said something to him about an hour ago about not doing the dishes and he said, "Its not like you are doing anything around here." But I don't have the time to do anything right now, and after that he went outside and I havent seen him since. I'd rather just talk about it instead of him run off and me go to bed so I can finally get some sleep, and we both go to bed angry with each other.

I definitely can't blog long, I've got a killer headache that started about the time I woke up today, turned itself into a migraine, which I came home and napped it away, but then it came back shortly after I woke up. I have all of my assignments but one ready to be turned in. So I'm all set, I dont know why I'm still stressing?? I havent had a chance to get groceries lately so I'm falling short on the eating front. So that isn't helping anything out. Its all just adding up I guess. But I don't feel too horrible, just every now and then something little sets me off.

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Sunday yet again and still no chance to sleep in. I definitely need to catch up at some point. Luckily I have open all morning so if I need to sleep in I can. I didnt even realize it was almost midnite already! I had to get up at 8 today so I could head back to Mass. I ended up staying at my cousins house last night after taking her picture. Stupid me stayed up chatting with her til 3 am, so I was pretty tired this morning.

The drive wasn't too awful, even though I was alone. Its kind of weird how the first hour or so of driving I'm wicked tired and then it just kind of goes away and the other 6 1/2 are pretty okay. I just blared some good tunes to keep me rolling.

So the super bowl was pretty annoying for the first half, then finally some action. I wanted Carolina to win but it wasnt too much of an issue because I'm a Bills fan [ yeah, yeah they blow ]. Now I'll just have to hear about how amazing the Patriots are for the next 3 months on the tv out here and on the radio. I wasn't really impressed with any of the commercials too much. Except for that GT, damn that thing is hot! But I was working on assignments through half of the bowl anyway, so I didnt pay too much attention to the commercials.

And I *finally* got to go shopping yesterday. I've been having a slight case of withdrawal so my mom and I went out yesterday. Sadly, I lost interest after about 3 stores so I didnt get a lot but it was nice anyway.

Have you ever felt completely fine in a situation that you knew you should be stressed about? I was like that for the past few weeks and then all of a sudden Thursday nite it hit me hard. I just started crying for what seemed to be no reason, but I'm sure it was stress and repressed feelings about things or something. I just thought that I would know that I was stressed and it wouldn't sneak up on me like that! It was totally weird. Well I'm outtie, g'nite

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