Alright well Stace just left so I thought I'd post something more substantial...maybe? Probably not. All I know is playing naked touch screen is fun, we got into the top ten at the tavern!

Why is it McDonalds quits serving breakfast so early?! Thats my biggest complaint of the day so far. I really wanted a McGriddle this morning, but I got up around 10:30 and thats when they quit.     Ehhhh, bastards. I'm so hungry and we are outta milk, so no cereal. Ah well.

I watched The Forgotten the other night...good movie. That new one    The Grudge I think its called...the previews scared me, I'm curious to how scary the movie is gonna be.

Well I better go get ready, I have to take some pictures up to the lab to get prints made.

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Ahhh girls night out. I love it . Its not over yet, but Stace is outside on the phone with Kip [ which is an excellent thing ], so I thought I'd post a lil somethin somethin for y'all. What it is ain't exactly clear...

I know I have to go make some mac n cheese. Thats routine. Other than that, I'm gonna pop in a movie and continue chatting. I don't remember the last time Stace and I just chilled, its been at least a month. Not that I don't see her every night out. oh shes off the phone...later

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An interesting tidbit I learned last night--Jeremy drank with Steve, the guy from Blues Clues...very odd. He said he was pimping it with 2 ladies and then after the bar closed he took the chicks to the stripclub. Steve's a naughty boy.

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Where do you stand?

Bush or Kerry?

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Holy hell, I am sore. My entire body tightened up over night. Who would have thought I used all of these muscles being a delivery girl?? Man I hurt.

Oh yeah, I officially have a job.  Last night at the bar Jimmy asked if I wanted to be the shot girl there. I said yes, probably shouldn't have, but I don't have a job, so why not? And it is kind of a fun job. Work six hours, make around $150. Thats good enough for me. Now as long as he doesn't say anything creepy to me, I've gotten a few remarks about him being a perv.

Creepy old man. His suggestions to me were, "Now you should probably wear something skimpy, you'll make better tips." and "You are going to get your ass slapped. You can put a stop to it, or you can go with it and make better tips." Oh man. But I know how it goes, I can deal as long as it doesn't get too creepy.

I also picked up an application for the movie store, that would be a great job. Now I just have to fill it out and return it...but damn if I'm not the laziest bitch ever.

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Okay so I didn't sleep in until noon, I kind of wish I had but I'm feeling alright now. I didn't fall back to sleep until after four and then I got called at nine this morning to work for the family business. So I was like, sure, even though last time I delivered I told myself I wasn't going to do it again. I'm glad I did because this time went much smoother anyway. Also, my status was updated and I'll be making somewhere between 6 and 8 bucks an hour. [ minimum wage here is $5.15 so anything is better'n that ]

So I had to haul around 2,000 pounds of food in the creepy van...and unload it all. So my muscles are sore and of course they drained the hot tub today. I could really use that, but I'm sure the shower will do me well. And its just a normal van sort of, its just  creepy because its the type that everyone says to look out for -- no windows in the back, side door ready to swing open and abduct you  It'd help if the company name was on the side or something.

I put in a little over five hours and I didn't have to go too far into Ohio and then to two places in PA. So it wasn't so long that I was lonely. Today was the first day I didn't take someone with me, but it worked out great. I like driving alone and I got a workout with out actually working out  .

Alright well I need to go get in the shower and get my butt to North East. Later all

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--I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO SLEEP--

I fell asleep around 9:30 and woke up a little before midnight and I haven't been able to fall back to sleep. Of course this happens when I actually had made plans to get up early, go work out and apply for that movie place job. But nooooo, I'll probably sleep until noon now.

Eh, I'm crawling back into bed for another attempt at sleep.

 

 

PS: GO RED SOX, yeah baby yeah!

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Damn I hate when I go to bed at like 5 in the morning and wake up before 10. it sucks.

So last night I was employed. Sweet. I got asked to be the shot girl at the bar. I said yes, and made 80 bucks. Hell yeah, I don't have to ask the parents for money for a while. So instead of spending money at the bar, I drank for free and had quite a good time. 

I decided since I worked last night, that I would go out Monday and have that be my last night in North East for a while. Unless they ask me back...I think I'd do that on the weekends. Quick'n Easy money, baby.  

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So this has been a busy weekend already. I don't feel much like typing about it though.

I was looking forward to tonight but Stacey [ the bff ], is in a terrible mood so I don't think thats going to be too much fun. But Renee is coming out with me so thats cool  So someone will be having a good time tonight! And it better be me, cuz I'm cutting waaay back after tonight. For these reasons:

* I'm tired of driving out to North East all the time

* I'm not going to lose my gut, even if I am working out if I keep drinking

* I want to go back to waking up earlier, living normal hours, being "normal me"

But I still want to have fun so we'll see how everything turns out. And now that Stacey is in some weird position she doesn't feel like going out there anymore either, so that'll make it easier for me to stay home.

Okay, I'm off to get ready and party hard my "last night" of being stupid for a while.

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OK I went out. I'm trashed. Eric - if you read this prior to 11am don't call til 12...

so there's this band at the bar...seen 'em before. some reason the one guy happens to like me...plays anything I want. Can't be all bad   Collective Soul, Tom Petty, etc. I just have to ask! Craziness. He says the next song to learn is December - I swear I had nothing to do with it!!

I'm really tired. I'd be asleep except that I need to eat another bowl of mac n cheese....other'n that. G'nite folks

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I really feel like writing but I have nothing to say. Well, except for, I love Thursday night tv. Yeah, thats about it.

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Some things I love from today:

1) experiencing someone's first time with something - it's just fun to watch someone do something for their first time ever, seeing something through "fresh" eyes.

2) catching up with old friends - aww I miss seeing her more often.

3) just chilling out and talking with people I don't see hardly ever - there is always so much to say in those circumstances.

4) hearing that people I like are happy and doing well.

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Bars really aren't that interesting when you haven't been drinking. I had 2 sprites. Yes people, just sprite. So I feel good about myself since I had no intentions of drinking and stuck to it. The karaoke however, was interesting. It was kind of cute, this 100 year old woman sang Somewhere Over the Rainbow.

I'm really freakin tired. I need to put in a good 12 hour sleep I'm thinking-I'm planning this one out, so if I do sleep that long I won't feel bad about it. I have to pee. Thank you and good nite.

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Uh oh, I think I'm getting sick. My throats doin that thing it does before I get sick. Urgh. I don't wanna deal with it.

Today was fun, did a little shopping, got my hair cut. Other than that I was a lazy bastard. Oh and I ate at the Texas Roadhouse mmmmmmmmmmmmm. Damn good steak there. I ordered another light kit from B&H yesterday. I hope I get it before I have any more shoots. I think I'm too lazy to keep blogging...I am so pathetic.

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I CANT QUIT EATING!! I think its probably cuz I'm so damn bored. Tomorrow I'm going to try to drink water all day and be full on that - does that actually work? I'll find out. 

Today I did a whole lot of nothing until Amy showed up and we went to work out. And now I think I'm going to take a nap because I'm probably going out tonight. Probably shouldn't, but I'm going to.

Thanks for the message Heather, by the time I got it you were away with your bloody nose  I hope you feel better soon-you and your whole crew need to quit makin out with each other so you can all get better  Oh and hopefully I'll get the csoul pix sent out tomorrow or Wednesday. I'm running behind from being so lazy. Ergh, hate myself.

Okay time for my nap... 

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man I'm bored...I probably should have taken the offer and went out.

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Great night of sleep + good dream = Happy, well rested Heather.

I stayed up beyond what I should have last night because I was still so tired from Friday night but it all worked out. I drove my ass home because I wasn't about to sleep on a hard floor again.

Stace and I went into a gas station cuz I was craving nachos & cheese...it was around 1 am maybe, but anyway it was like straight out of a horror film-the guy behind the counter was so scary. He was creepy looking and he stared at us. I wish that I could get past making these kind of judgements about people, but sometimes I just can't. I have a wild imagination and easily creep myself out about things.

Dale Jr took back the top spot after todays race in New Hampshire. So thats excellent, I really hope he wins the championship this year. I wish I visited Jay this next weekend instead of when I did, cuz then I could go to the race in Dover.

Well I should go try to accomplish the few things that are on my agenda while watching the Bills game...I don't think its going to go so well though. 

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.: I am so unmotivated. Theres some stuff I should do and I just don't want to. That includes going out tonight. So I have to get peppy or something and at least take a shower. Lying around on the couch for hours isn't really a good thing. But nobody is home and I'm bored. Ehhhhh. :. 

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Damn I want these boots:

But I can't find them anywhere on the site except for that picture to go to the rest of the boots

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I hate when people leave you voicemails that are so damn intriguing and then they say "Call me tomorrow so we can talk." DAMN YOU TARA!!  I really really really wanna know what she was talking about!

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g'dammit! I got the stupid DVD version and it won't work

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uh oh. I got the Sims2...

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Oh its an ugly, rainy day. Perfect for shopping...but I don't feel like leaving my house today. Maybe if it would stop raining. Maybe we can do lunch next week Eric, I think that'll work better anyway cuz I'm going to go eat some leftovers from last night. We'll figure something out. 

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Hmmm...unkymoods must be down...no how am I feelin...so I'll just tell you. I'm really freakin' tired, feelin kind of weird, irritated and exhausted. Just in a weird mood maybe, I don't really know.

Anyway, I was gonna go out but The Apprentice was on and who doesn't love The Donald?? Well, I do. I love it, its like a huge improvement on the lemonade stand game...which is on the net somewhere, I'll have to google that up again. Too much fun.

Where was I going with that? Oh yeah, I was gonna go out. I told everyone I'd see 'em at the normal Thursday night bar but then I got lazy and Apprentice didn't go off until 11 anyway. I was pretty surprised with that ending!

Since I'm not seeing my friends tonight I really wanted to do something with them tomorrow night but Stacey wants to go see Blue Oyster Cult...they are playing on a farm in the next town over. How weird is that? And I'd only wanna see 'em do 2 songs: Godzilla and Don't Fear the Reaper. So, not so much worth it.

Going out with the old high school history teacher Saturday, that'll be nice, I love her! Saw her and my old business teacher and volleyball coach today. That was great...but I pissed my dad off. He sent me to the hardware store to pick up like 10 little screws or something around 3 and I didn't come home until after 5...empty handed. I feel really bad because he does so much for me and I couldn't do this one little thing for him? It wasn't all my fault though, the lady at the store said they didn't have what he needed.

Well I'm spewing out random shit and I'm probably just going to go watch Jay Leno & Conan O'Brian-If I don't fall asleep first. I'm always so tired anymore...

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Just got back from lunch with Alex. Went to a chinese buffet...wasn't very good and nothing like the one I went to in CT with Amy  Which reminds me, I really like it when a guy rocks out pink. Alex has a really nice pink shirt. Pink is hot, therefore that will be the color of my post this time.

So I've got another photo shoot type thing coming up sometime very soon. Sure its just passport photos but its $$. And then when I was at Wal*Mart earlier, a woman I know said she was hiring me to do her daughters senior pictures next spring, so that's cool. And then I'm supposed to be doing a one year old's birthday portraits sometime this month-hopefully thats still on the table since I missed half of September already.

So I guess things may be starting to fall into place for me. But it's so confusing because I still don't really know what I want to do with myself right now. Move away for a few years, go photograph on cruiseships, or stay here and get really going on my own. I CANT DECIDE!!!!!!! Its so hard because it really is an important decision. BLAH!

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Wow I feel like I have no privacy. The ex spies on me through AIM and now motime...how can I be friends with someone who does that sort of thing? And then makes assumptions on anything that he finds. I don't know when I'm going to get over this or if I'm going to be able to be friends with him. I truly wanted to be, but I'm so offended by the comments, and the voicemails he left on my phone. Just cursing me out and calling me names with out knowing whats really going on is just wrong. At least on that scale it is. Telling me to grow up and answer my phone when it never rang because I had no service, thats not nice either.

A word of wisdom [ its actually kinda stupid  ]:  Don't assume things it only makes an ASS out of U and ME...

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I hate when people call you to go out when you don't want to. I'd rather be sleeping tonight, but its all good I said no. Last night was kinda messed up though. My ride stranded me at the bar, with my permission, to go to some thing for the kid who killed himself's sister's house. For some reason I can't get involved, I hate the thought of someone taking their own life and I can't believe this guy did it. It makes me sick.

So as far as the comments on the last entry...Eric, I'll try to email you sometime this week, but don't hold me to it. Heather, thanks for being a friend.

Well, as I told Stacey, this is my sleeping night--I'm going back to bed.

 

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Alright, so I'm going to do a mini-recap...

Left DC Saturday afternoon, arrived in Albany at almost midnight [ sorry Cor ]. Stayed up and chatted with Corey and Heather for a little bit and then went to bed. Got a phone call at 2 in the morning--it was Stacey, she just needed to talk because some kid we know killed himself  So that was kind of tough to get back to sleep after, but I did it. Anyway, the next day was an excellent day!

Went down to SUNY Albany for the concert. There was something like six bands, a comedian [ that wasn't funny ], and some break dancers. Most of the bands were pretty good. Corey and I got free t-shirts from the band he really liked, kind of a Ben Folds Five sort of group. And then Heather knew the front man in the band that played a little later, and she ended up getting a shirt from that band, so that was cool.

It was a great day, hot and sunny - we just layed around in the lawn and watched the bands. But then Collective Soul came on and we got up to the front of the stage, right in front of Dean. Excellent positioning. They rocked hard but the crowd kind of sucked and they only played a condensed version of what I saw in Cleveland. But for 10 dollars can ya bitch? No way.

Then after the concert we went around back and sweet Corey ran to the car to get my camera...literally ran...both ways. Corey RAWKS! So we got some autographs and pictures with 3 of the band members. Oh and I got a guitar pick that Ed used during the show, so that was cool, too. And Corey is now a converted CSoul fan as well .

I guess that about wraps up the trip. I'm kind of sad that its over but its not so bad to be home. Thanks to everyone who took me in during the past week and a half-love y'all

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Ok I really wanna blog and all but I don't have time right now that I'm finally home...but I just wanna post this picture of me with my favorite Collective Soul'er Dean....

PS the concert was GREAT

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Lucky me I don't have a hangover. I'm so dumb sometimes. Went out on the town with Beth, Jen and Beth's coworker Dawn. Stayed up way too late, slept way too little, and now I'm about to head out to Albany.

Yesterday was good, I actually walked around DC by myself. This is a big feat for me...I've always been one of those afraid of cities people, needing someone to be with me, but I enjoyed the time spent with myself and the weather was amazing. I haven't really had a bad day of weather yet on this trip. Much better than it has been at home too, probably.

So as I was chilling out by the Washington Monument, Jen called and was freaking out a little bit, so I had to talk her through the city to come pick me up. I'm sure that 35 minute conversation is going to make the phone bill rather high. So everything seemed good until we got back to the car and there was a HUNDRED DOLLAR ticket on her car. I forked out half cuz it's my fault she even came down into the city.

Parallel parking sucks, thats probably the one thing that would keep me from living here. And I am seriously thinking about moving down here if I find a job in the area. I just want to get away, move somewhere that stuff is actually going on. I really like that Kelly Clarkson song Break Away, I think its called, kinda applicable.

So anyway, met Beth for lunch yesterday at a cute little deli type place. Got attacked by a creepy ass bug! I cannot even stress enough just how creepy that thing was. And Beth squashed it for me-she's my savior sometimes   Got some wicked bad blisters on my feet from the new heels I bought while in Delaware, walked barefoot back and thats pretty gross but I had to do what I had to do. We went to a whole lot of bars, and sat out on a lot of patios - I love warm nights!! Met some interesting people, mostly with different political agendas than me. But I'm really not into politics much, but I'm in DC and thats what its all about. Well I have to go eat my macaroni and cheese that Beth made me

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Alright, some time to type a bit. Where did I leave off? Oh yeah, I'll pick up from last Saturday.

So I got up, got ready and did the Dunkin Donuts thing. Took some fun pictures with Heather, made her an hour and a half late or so for her trip home, and headed off to Staten Island...still without letting Justin know that I was coming...oops.

I kept trying to call him and kept getting no answer. So I was freaking out a bit, to say the least. But I finally got a hold of him when I was going across the GW bridge. He was like "Oh, so I guess you are coming today." Luckily he didn't care [ or at least pretended not to ]

So I don't really remember what went on when so I'll just recap a lil. Went to a wake type of thing for some kid neither of us knew, then watched videos of the kid at some girls house, tried to do "flips" from my stomach to my back with out the use of legs/arms, logged waaaay too many hours on the futon being lazy bastards-pretty sure we surpassed 16 hours in a 24 hour period, went to my first renaissance fair, and saw the weird little girls doing their Irish jigging competition. Very odd time on the island but I enjoyed it a lot.

So then it was off to Delaware. Jay scared the shit outta me as I was waiting for him in a parking lot-right next to the Dover race track! So that was cool. We had dinner and just chatted a bunch. Went shopping-always fun! Picked up the Darkside Astrology book-very interesting book that tells you all the bad stuff about being your sign. Quite accurate most of the time. Fell in love with some amazing boots that I dream about but can't decide if I wanna lay that kinda money down. Watched EuroTrip since thats what I heard about the entire time I was in NY. It was funny. I also fell in love with Jay's dog, Ally. She's so cute and I want a scotty now, too, again. And then there is Dale Jr...Thank your mom again for me Jay! I'm gonna sleep with that thing  

Well to wrap this one up, last night I got into Washington and saw Beth's workplace-very fun ocean vibe to it. After she was done at work we went off to some bar/restaurant. Looked nice but wow, what shitty service. So Beth and I hung out at her place for the rest of the night and caught up on things. It's so nice to see her, and really glad to be here. Jen is coming down later  Gonna be a good day/night. If I don't blog by tomorrow then I got abducted in DC-call the police

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I'm in DC and my trip f'n RULES. NY was interesting, Dela-where was fun. I don't want to go home...but I'm not getting into anything right now, I'll write tomorrow when Beth is at work.

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Well once Heather got home today was fun. We went off to the China Gourmet for dinner and then drove up to school for a looksee on things that have changed.

WOAH, they have paved parking? Lucky bastards...I can't wait to actually see inside the place sometime. But who knows when I'll be back.

Then on the way back to her place we saw Tim Lynch parking out front of his apartment. So we had to stop! I mean, its Tim and he rules. Hehe. He showed us around his very cool apartment and we chatted for a lil while.

Then we came back here and...SLEPT!! How on earth I was even tired, I don't know. But I sletp really good. She at least had a reason to be tired [ she got up at 2 am to get ready for work - yikes ].

Well, tomorrow is Dunkin Donuts and goodbye Mass moving on to NYC. I still need to get a hold of Justin to let him know...

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Not fair, Eric. You can't just decide to mention suicide when I'm eight hours away.




The way I see it is if everything is bad enough to want to take your own life, you have hit the bottom. Theres no way but UP. Seriously. Taking your life-thats the only way to make it worse. Not just for yourself but for everyone who loves you. No one is ever truly a burden on someone else. If they were then they'd drop you.

I cant stop crying and thats pissing me off. Now I get to sit here all day and think about it. Awesome

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Well, I made it to Mass last nite :) Its good to be back! Not here long though because stuff is going on with Heather and she has to go home tomorrow morning. So it looks like I'm heading to NYC early. I hope Justins ready for me!! :)


This might work out kind of nice since I had to lose a day in Washington to go see Corey. Can I say I'm scared a LOT to drive in to see Justin? I always have to ask people, "Is it ok? Can I get over?" I guess this will be a real test of my driving ability and maybe it'll get me over my whole issue...who knows.


Alright well I'm sure I'll post more later since I've got time to blow til Heather gets outta work around 5:30.



Miles Logged: 500   Hours Logged: 7.5

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And I'm off on the road trip of the year!!

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Is it selfish to hurt someone else because you want to be on your own, not tied down in any way?? I don't want to be a horrible person, but I want to be happy. Or at least be what I think happy is for me, at least at this point in my life.

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