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Name: Heather
Age: 23
Location: NW PA
Job: Photographer
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I guess I am insanely bored today...I started a picture of the day blog. You can get there by the link over there ----> in photolinks "my pictoblog" or you can just click here right now.
So I actually worked out yesterday, its good to be back on that horse. I've been such a lazy bastard, and all I did from Thursday on was eat, eat, eat. Every time I stopped anywhere on my trip I had to find food. Rather disgusting, really.
I stepped on the scale and it said 126....I'm like oh shit, getting fat. But then I heard that it runs 4 pounds heavy. I dont know about all that. Someones trying to make me feel better! Its all in my damn belly. WHY?!
Okay I need to move on to another topic...I just finished up the leftover stuffing from last nights dinner. Mmmmmm. But now I'm still hungry and don't know what to eat. Thats not really a new topic.
I've been having some really good catch up conversations with a lot of my friends. Its nice to know whats going on in everyones lives. I let myself drift away from people so easily sometimes it seems. Get caught up in one thing and push people away. I'm far too caught up in whats going on in my life and not enough in how everyone else is doing. I guess thats something to work on.
I need to get back into writing my to do lists. I always accomplish so much more when I have it written out in front of me. Any of you Hallmarkers miss having our lives scheduled for us?! I really do, in a sense. It was nice to look at a piece of paper, find my section, and know exactly where I needed to be and when. Maybe I need to get me a personal assistant? Hahaha as if.
Well the words are flowing but I'm not entirely sure if they make much sense so I'm gonna give this up for now. Hope you all have a wonderful day!
I want this book really bad:

So I saw a little test on Dunn's blog and I took it. Its a test to see what my life would be rated if it were a movie...here's my outcome:

Comment on what yours would be...
Okay so Boston was fun...I could definitely live there. But will I ever move away from this little town I grew up in? I'm not sure about that yet. I'll decide by spring, because of starting the photo business, we'll see how that all goes.
I heard a fun song while out in Boston. I think its called Merry Frickin Christmas, but the words were changed to celebrate the Sox winning. Bashing the yankees and whatnot, quite funny. Speaking of Red Sox, I got my sticker in the mail while I was gone so I'm hap hap happy :). I also picked up the magazine that my photo ran in. I'll hafta scan it and post it.
Amy works at the cutest little hotel restaurant. And her boy cooks some amazingly yummy food. Free breakfast at night, "free" food at the bar that night...Okay so the bar food wasn't free, but I thought it was. It was a really big bar called The Big Easy and there was a little room off to the side where there was some food. I thought it was a catered bar...what do I know?!? I was crashing someones class reunion. Oops. S'all good, no one seemed to care.
I ended up visiting three different malls during my weekend trip. A trip to Holyoke was in order, I miss that mall! But its just not the same w/o the Hallmarkers there. Then went to two fun ones in Boston. But the one was waaaaaay too expensive. Had like Louis Vuitton and Gucci stores in it -- and parking cost us $25 to park for 2 1/2 hours!!! Damn that sucked.
Overall, what an excellent weekend. It was great to see Amy + HeatherD and meet Amys boyfriend [ you two are too cute ]. Amy was dragging ass after walking around Boston for a while [ as was mine ], but as soon as she saw Jair she was wired and all lit up. Whatta smitter :)
So three more days til operation photo biz begins. Unless I decide to start early...somewhat doubtful. I'm off to workout and be lazy the rest of the day/night.
Just wanted to post quick before I leave for Boston. I'll catch ya'll up on Sunday or Monday. Have a great weekend! :)
Aww looking at the pictures below makes me wanna cuddle 'em soooo bad!! I also want one of these:

How would that look me walking an ankle biter and a big ol' mtn. dog?!
I'll post somethin later probably because for now I have to go make a delivery for MV. And tonight-biggest party night of the year...so if I can fit something in, I'll git-r-done. Later kids ; )
I found the dog breed I've been looking for: Bernese Mountain Dog. here are some pix:


I just don't know if I could actually handle/maintain one of these. But they are damn gorgeous.
i feel like i have something to write about, but i'm pretty sure i don't.
I just wanted to post again today because I'm on my own computer finally! My dad hooked my computer up to the internet today. Feels good to be back on my own pc. No more getting mad at my dad for kicking me off the computer, or for him staying on it for 12 hours at a time. Man I am happy.
Also happy cuz I'm wearin my big furry boots!! I got stuff accomplished today, so that helps, too. I love good moods.
Alright well I'm off to watch Bridget Jones Diary with Stace, then out for a bit to see everyone. Have a good night :)
wow, i just slept forever. felt good. today is looking up. i'm in a decent mood. alex is at his interview. i'm going to see amy this weekend. things are looking up. i think my mood swinging is over. now for some motivation to come my way. in matters of the home and career. i feel like i'm never going to get a real job...maybe i should seriously just go full throttle on the photography business. guess we'll see what comes.
I might have to put my cat outside or to sleep. :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
Anyone know how to get cats to stop PISSING ALL OVER THE PLACE??
Well hopefully Alex gets his job that he's interviewing for tomorrow, cuz if he does I'm moving out with him. Then I don't have to put up with my dads bitching, and my cat will probably do fine if the litterbox is somewhere I won't forget about it and barely ever clean it. I'm sure thats playing a part in the cats behavior.
I really don't want to put her outside because she's been an indoor cat for over two years, she doesn't have her front claws either. Plus its getting to be that time of the year that she'd freeze to death! Ehhhh
Jr lost....what a shitty ending to the season. On a positive note: the Bills kicked major Ram ass!
Well this was a pretty good weekend. I don't know how much I really feel like writing about though. Went out to Jimmy's for the first time since I quit working there, Friday night. Ended up at the Hotel both nights though. Actually had a good time there. Drank responsibly. Wasn't too crazy. At all.
Okay so maybe I'm saving it all up for Wednesday...biggest party night of the year. But I don't wanna be a retard cuz I can't wait to eat on Thursday. Hangovers would definitely mess up my happiness. We don't even know what we are doing yet for Wed. now because the bar we were gonna go to is having a country band rather than my friends band. So...New Wave Nation again?! I'm definitely game. They sing 80's songs, very well I might add. Too much fun.
The band from the bar last night was a really good time. I think they are called the Porcelain Bus Drivers. They sing a little bit of everything. Some rap, some disco, some 80's, 90's and today. Just random stuff, but they play Brown Eyed Girl and I love that song, so I like 'em that much more.
Alright well I'm having too many conversations on IM to keep up with this, so I'm done for now.
Ok, I lied. I didn't get off this thing yet, cuz I found something kind of interesting. It's a name thing, from tarot.com. Here are some of the things that my name "means":
o The name promotes optimism, inspiration, and enthusiasm. It feels cheerful, outgoing, and charming. represents self-expression and communication skills. Its upward energy is a sign of tremendous creativity and all artistic endeavors are empowered by its vibration. The name attracts just about everyone.
o However, it lacks focus and discipline, can be a "happy-go-lucky spendthrift", and can give the impression of flightiness and instability.
o Most positive characteristics: Upbeat, creative, capable communicator, inspiring, uplifting. Has sense of humor, draws creative and passionate people.
o Most negative characteristics: Scattered energy, difficulty in finishing projects, unreliable.
o The Vowel Vibration in the name reflects some of the best humanity has to offer: idealism, self-sacrifice, generosity, moral strength, and, above all, a true love for all of mankind. The vowels reflect dreams of utopia, belief in the goodness of mankind, and faith in the universe at large.
o One senses joy and optimism. It generates a positive outlook on life. It reflects a sense of humor, wit and intelligence. The base vibrations add glamour, romance and sex appeal to the name.
o At the same time, the energy is scattered and often superficial, producing little or no results. The name inspires early success and popularity, but more is required to make them last.
o However, there is also a distinct "lucky streak" that opens the door to opportunities.
It's kind of right on about a lot of things, creepy. You try: Name Advisor
And its Friday!! Excellent. Now if I can get rid of this damn headache...been having a lot of them this week.
Today was a wasted day. I hate them but I feel really crappy. Besides the headache my neck and back are still all messed up. I better get a most excellent backrub at some point this weekend or I fear it'll never go away :-P.
I'm going to Boston next Friday!! I'm so excited, I miss Amy so much : ). And who doesn't love BOSTON?? I was supposed to go today but I decided I should go when I'm feelin better. Riding in a car wouldn't be too much fun for nine hours with an irritated back.
Oooh I just checked my mail, I forgot that I had ordered tickets to a comedy show in Buffalo and a red sox nation sticker for my car! Yay, I can relive the excitement hehe.
Alright gotta get off this thing before it makes my head feel worse. Have a kick ass weekend everyone!
Ahh good old Thursday. Tired Thursday, really. I slept like crap last night and was woke up to a call from Maplevale a little after 9 this morning, in need of a delivery to be made. So I said yes, even though I was already halfway to the place they wanted me to go. So I got up, drove home and then drove to where they needed me to.
Wasn't too bad, cuz I got to stop by Best Buy and pick up the new Collective Soul cd and also the Bowling for Soup one too. I also went to the bagel place and to Krispy Kreme, I'm a pretty happy girl. Minus the body pain I'm going through, what is UP with my neck and back anyway?
Tonight should be fun, minus the kid that was trying to hook up with me and Stace that was there on Tuesday. Hopefully he doesn't show up.
I'm trying to decide if I want to go to Boston this weekend. Of course I still have to call Amy but I think this is probably the best time to do it. I miss that crazy beotch!!
Okay, I'm off - enjoy your thirsty thursday everyone ; )
all of a sudden I can't -wait- for Christmas!
Yesterday was a good day. A lot less cranky and way more fun. When I went to get groceries I stopped by Alex's work and we went out to lunch at Pizza Hut and then to Wal*Mart. Picked up a couple movies, Elf and Saved. Then when I got back from Corry I was gonna take a nap and watch soaps but Maplevale called and wanted me to make a delivery, so I did.
Seems like every single time I go somewhere the route they send me has a detour that makes it a longer trip! So that sucked, but it was alright. Then when I got back from the delivery Alex and I went to LaScala's. Which is where Stace works. So that was fun, and expensive. Damn, I certainly won't go there again for a while. It cost me $36.00 and that was just paying for me to eat!! The food was amazing though, NY Strip Steak with mushrooms, salad, baked potato and then! then! DESSERT! Mmmm it was so good. Chocolate mousse cake aka Death by Chocolate. A-ma-zing.
So Alex got clams...that started a very dirty dinner conversation. We were just pervs the whole time. I'm glad it wasn't too busy because I'm pretty sure we got loud a few times. It was so much fun. **Jam out with yer clam out**
Then after dinner I dropped Alex off at his car and met Stacey at my house. We drove by the local watering hole to find nobody there...it is a Tuesday after all, I suppose. But I hadn't gone out in a lil bit and I really wanted to go have fun, just the two of us. So we ended up at our usual Thursday night spot and had a lot of fun. Played a bunch of touch screen and darts. I think we are improving! But when it was just me vs. her it took quite a while because I couldn't finish up the game with the 3 bullseyes! Eventually I did but the people who wanted to play next game with us had to wait quite a while : )
I can't wait til next Monday - goin to see Bridget Jones Diary at the theater. Wish I could see it with you guys - HeatherD and Amy. You two are the reason I want to see it. I hadn't ever watched the first one til last June with you. Heather -- have you heard anything more about that job in Turners?
Okay I don't think I'll bore anyone with anything else. Next time may be more interesting, but I have a feeling its going to be a boring week. Y'all come back now, ya hear?
So we went to pick up the car last night...I drove home without my headlights between two of my parents vehicles. It was actually kind of fun. Except when my mom took off too fast and I lost her headlights and was driving all over the road! My dad got on the radio and was like "heather whats going on?!" I felt like a retard, but hey, no lines in the road and no headlights-not much of a chance there.
Well my mom is off to the hospital getting some test done. She isn't allowed to drive for three days now, so I'm doing the mom thing and going to get groceries. They decided that it probably is her heart and not something else, so that sucks. I really hope this test reveals something. This needs to be fixed.
Okay, so, yeah I need to get my butt in gear cuz I'm hungry and we don't have anything to eat! Have a good day everyone!
As if today didn't already suck, my car finished dying on the side of the highway today. Now I have to go back out there with my dad to jumpstart it and hope that works and drive home sans headlights!!! Jesus, this is insane. It wouldn't be too awful except that I have a pretty bad tension headache working up. I've got a hotpad on my neck/shoulders right now. Mmm it smells good. That damn foreign girl got us to buy all kinds of crap we didn't need at that little booth in the mall!
Oh I went to the mall...and applied to four places. One had an immediate interview and she said she'd call tomorrow if she had something for me...I'm thinking its a no...it was very awkward. She asked what my fave/least fave thing about myself was. My least fave was "I don't have a job." Does that really count? Oh well, I half-assed it all a bit. So hopefully this time next week I might have a job at ONE of the other places. [ bath + body works, victoria's secret, aeropostale, or buckle ]
Ok I'm gonna go lay down before my dad gets back and makes me go get my stupid f'ing car...
if only they had a mega-grumpy icon for the mood thing...I'm so bitchy today!! My feet hurt from wearing boots, and I'm wearing them again today anyway...I hate my hair today, I have to go try to find a job now. I'm just moody moody moody. I'll write something better later. Hope you all have/had a better day than me! [ how sad I've only been up for like an hour and a half and I already feel this grouchy!!! ]
So I had a good first jobless weekend. Went out to some places I'd never been both Friday and last night. Saw all sorts of people that I didn't know [ refreshing ] and of course people that I do know and hadn't seen in a while. I finally saw my friend Stephanie, who I hadn't seen since the fall after high school graduation - was that really four years ago??? Got her number so I could talk to her when she wasn't totally wasted. That reminds me, Stace and I have to start planning the class of 2000 five year reunion pretty soon. Craziness!
Today is such a lazy day. I plan on laying around and watching the race, then the Bills game, and then its Sex in the City marathon night and apartment hunting through the Sunday papers with Stace. Also gotta be looking for a job in there, too. She wants to get a new job but she doesn't want to actually try to get one. I understand where shes coming from but if she doesn't get a new one, she's gonna be driving like an hour to work. Probably not fun.
I guess I offended her boyfriend last week. I'd had too much to drink and decided to call him. I don't even remember what I said, but he told Jason and then Jason told me. I guess I told him that he and Stace were both unstable people and they needed to find someone stable for themselves. Then he said something to me, I called him an asshole and he hung up on me. Whoops. I'm such an asshole. I think everythings all better now though. Although Kevin was saying that I'm unstable because I live with my parents. That doesn't seem like reason enough, and I think I'm a pretty stable person. Am I fooling myself? I don't think so, but I dunno.
So I did chop my hair a bit Thursday, I'll post a pic as soon as I look cute enough to take one of myself :-P
I can't wait for this:
Charlie & The Chocolate Factory! With Johnny Depp!!!

I bet Heather D will love it too!
ugh i'm having a fat day.
Oh yeah, court. It went as well as can be expected I suppose. He dropped the fine down by 35 bucks and made it an even $100, dropped my speed down so that it shouldn't be anything the insurance company will slam me for.
Shitty thing is, after I left there I was heading over to my friend Doug's house so we could go to a movie, when all of a sudden my lights on my car dimmed, some of my gauge lights turned on and all my dash lights dimmed, too. A lot of people have said they think its the alternator. Guess we'll find out soon, I have to go pick it up at Stacey's house.
Doug and I watched Surviving Christmas since that was the only thing playing at the time we got there. It was funny but, I'd have rather watched Alfie or Friday Night Lights. Okay well I have to go get ready, I'm being delivery girl again today for Maplevale. Adios, amigos!
I no longer work at Jimmy's. All done with that. So on to something else for me, I guess. I can't type much cuz I'm really tired and need to take advantage of that. I hope I sleep good tonight. I'm thinking that I will.
Wow, so a weekend all to myself!! What am I gonna do?? Guess we'll see. I'll probably go out in Erie since it's been a while since I've been on State Street. But maybe I'll go to Jimmy's...hmm I'd rather not. So sick of that place!
Okay that's all for now. G'nite ![]()
This thing is amazing! Yourself!Fitness for the Xbox...I think I'm gonna get it. Check it out - too cool.
My mom voted for the Mandy Moore cut first, Sharon Stone second. So this isn't helping me much, I need more suggestions...I'll figure it out soon cuz I HATE MY HAIR. I can't believe I ran around with my hair soooo long for so many years, it looked like crap!
So I'm in a shitty mood. Of course, right? Seems like thats just how its been lately. Mopey. I think I'm going to go apply for some jobs today or tomorrow, just mall jobs, but I need more $$ so I can move out. Then I could quit Jimmy's and have my weekends back.
I'm gonna be in an even worse mood when I go to court tonight and pay 100 + dollars for that damned speeding ticket. Oh but I love to speed. Going fast is fun, and sometimes I just don't even realize that I'm doing it-those are the times I get busted.
Well the cats are irritating the piss out of me, I need to go feed them. Later y'all
Mmm nothin like a glass of wine with dinner to relax. I made a pretty good dinner, and now I'm full and fat. So I have a poll for y'all, especially those that know me but anyone can vote.
Ok, I want to cut my hair again...please vote to help my ass out...my hair is ugly at the length it is now, its too thin for much length. I hate it. And I'm not about to start teasing my hair to make it look good!
(1) The latest 'do on Sharon Stone [ who was born only 30 miles away from me...new info, no wonder she goes to the Peak ] It's definitely over photo-shopped but you can see the hairdo.
(2) A little longer a'la Mandy Moore:
(3) Or, keep it pretty close to what I've got now...well, a bit shorter.
Just on a positive note...if I was ever to get married it would be to this man:

mmmhmm!
So I have an issue that's challenging my mantra. I'm so sick of living with my parents. Everything would be fine if I had never lived on my own before but I have and now I want that again.
My dad pisses me off about the cats, my camera equipment, and a few other things. There isn't enough room in this stupid f'ing house and I have too much shit to fit into my tiny little room.
I'm whiney, yes I know that. But I'm irritated and I wish I could find an apartment somewhere here in town, but we don't even have a newspaper to look in. How the hell is that supposed to work out? Errr I'm moving to Pennsylvania.
The only thing is, I don't want to move when its cold out. I have a lot of crap and I would hate to have to do it when it's so cold or nasty out. Plus my parents house is amazing in the winter. So warm and cozy. But GD I WANT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope I get over this, but its only been getting worse...
And oh my god, its snowing right now. YUCK
Mmm, I ate Bob Evans for breakfast today! I'm in a pretty good mood overall. The Bills are tied at the half with the Jets, I didn't work last night, life just seems to be good...
I still can't get enough sleep but someday I'll make up for it. Went shopping yesterday with Beth and her friend Laura. I felt like crap but I worked through it and bought some new yummy perfume [ deep red by hugo boss ], a chic new cell phone cover [ oooh its so soft ], and Fable [ a cool game for the Xbox ]. So today I plan to smell good while lazing around watching sports and playing Fable and touching my phone. I think that was the first time I went to the mall and didn't buy clothes.
So question of the week...am I gonna quit working at Jimmy's? I'll be thinking about it all week. I definitely would if I got a real job, I think.
So I was reading my Glamour magazine and found an article that I could relate to. It's about a new play by Eve Ensler, author of Vagina Monologues. It's about women hating their body. Her hate in particular, is for her belly - same as me. So I wanna see this play, but beyond that here is a quote from the article, that I just liked.
"How do you keep women out of power? Keep us in front of the mirror. It's like women have been given a little country called our bodies, which we get to tyrannize while men get all of the world. If we were to actually cut, even by a quarter, the amount of money and the amount of time we spend fixing ourselves, do you know what the planet would be like?"
And now in closing, using the word of the week : I'm a big proponent for women loving their bodies. I hope someday that I'll make peace with my belly...
Damn it is soooo windy today!! My car will probably blow off the highway on my way to work tonight.
I don't think I'm ready for winter to be here yet. It's 40 degrees today and I'm already freezing. Although if I found someone to hang out with and go snowmobiling, I'd be a happy girl. I haven't gone in a long time.
Well last night I did my first photo shoot in a few months. Just the passport photos, but its quick, easy money. For some reason my new light kit wasn't cooperating with me but with my "Hallmark Education" I knew what to do without a background light.
I showed my portfolio on Wednesday. It was a little awkward because I was at the doctor last Thursday and as I'm getting my exam the doctor and nurse were talkin to me about shooting a family portrait for Christmas. I don't know about her, but if I were her, I'd be picturing me naked while taking the pictures since thats how I looked when we were discussing it. UGH! So anyway, I took my portfolio for her to look at when my mom and best friend went in this past Wednesday. Hopefully I hear from her soon. [ side note to Hallmarkers: 40 dollar sitting fee is pretty decent isn't it? 6 people in the photo, on location... ]
Wednesday was Stacey's birthday, we went out to dinner and out for a few drinks in Erie. It was a lot of fun. Dinner was GREAT, filet mignon - nice n bloody [ sorry amy :) ], pasta n sauce, bread n butter, and salad. And its even better when you don't have to pay for it!
One of the bars we went out to had just won this Labatt Blue thinger so we stopped in cuz it was 1.00 Blue bottles. While we were there we were watching the news and the guy sitting a few chairs over was on tv, because he owned the bar, and it was a pretty big deal that he won I guess. So that was kinda cool. He had all the "toys" from the commercials. Like the pez-like beer dispenser, and the beer dispensing adirondack chair. Cool stuff.
Okay, I think I'm out of things to say. Have a great Friday y'all!
man i really hope kerry doesnt win today...i'll move to mexico.
Damn, 2 out of 3 nights...is that possible? I'm irritated as hell!!!!!!! My hot pocket is gone, i'm gonna have to make another. Which isn't going to help my mood at all. Hopefully I can sleep tonight. Maybe that'll help....
So I didn't accomplish anything today. I slept like crap last night even though I was so extremely tired. But I did wake up around 10 and do a delivery for Maplevale. So that took up a good chunk of my day. Then I came home and attempted to nap. Didn't work, I only slept a few minutes here and there, and had weird/bad dreams whenever it happened.
Don't forget to vote tomorrow! Voting is sexy
. They did this lil ad thing on Fuse and some guy asked some chicks if it was a turn off if a guy didn't vote. I would definitely have to agree with them and say yes, definitely a turn off. It doesn't even matter which way you are voting, just the fact that you are doing it is excellent, at least in my opinion.
I guess I need to go get ready. I'm going out to Beth's to hang out for a while before meeting everybody else out. Have a good night everyone : )